xmas celebration 09

went sarah's church yesterday for the belated xmas celebration. gotta wear formal, so i wore formal. so damn funny wearing a dress. because of the celebration, i bought a new pair of shoes to suit my dress. not a heels though. i dont wear heels ;) reached the church around 6 something, i guess? can't remember. they went to have dinner at a coffee shop nearby. a group of teenagers in their formal wear and heels! so awkward mann. i met some new friends. actually is a lot. but not really can remember their names. i remember Marilyn, Jeremy, Ray. three only -.- they all spoke in english, well i just have to be quiet since idk them well and my english sucks. don't wanna memalukan sendiri in front of so many people. both of the gay are funny. one titi Eurasian, another one was playing with his mirror. funny niaa. went to have supper after the celebration. mom reached around 9.45p.m didnt inform us. end up getting lecture again. sighh. will upload the videos of vincent and shaun dancing soon. the end.

me and dear aim.

was daryl trying to act cool? xP

lyn.

makan! makan!

daryl.

shocked ewe ming xD

zoey the maid XD

*yum yum*

ruo yun.

here is some photos i captured during the camp.

15.12.2009 first day of kpa camp. reached around 8.15a.m committees taught us how to save people, CPR, run the host! got no idea what is all these are for. didnt pay attention for it after all. fooling around with daryl & cheekeong at the night. went home at 10 o'clock. 16.12.2009 second day of camp. a masakan competition. station game and a presentation. got no mood after mom called up and said that the ministry tidak meluluskan my appeal. sigh. dont know i should be happy or sad after all. was feeling so.............. dont know how to describe. was sitting there and thinking nothing, doing nothing. just staring far away. daryl and zhi ying as usual advised me not to be so sad anymore. but idk how to feel! happy or sad?! i dont know! sighh. the only one who did the less thing for masakan was me! but i know daryl didnt blame me for that i guess. cut some carrot for the soup and 拔菜(dont know correct word not) finallyy i laughed. all cause of kean loon cut the carrot with some funny ways and he looked funny when he was cutting it. hah. daryl was shocked? or dont know what reaction he was when he saw the carrot, hah. boiled the soup for like 1 hour plus plus. goshh. i was so dam hungry and moody :/ daryl was so down and continued by lyn if im not mistaken. night time, presentation! we were the one and only group prepared :D we danced, did some stupid stuff such as Daryl & Yui Chun hid behind a board. there were cheering when we were dancing *whoo-hoo* people gone wild after the presentation. not all, but a few. third day which is also todayy! today got pc, penyelamat, bomba competiton and kawat kaki. daryl was nervous until "skuad" became "stood" when he was giving command. almost everyone burst into laughter. he even called Janice ENCIK! mygoodness! went to see puan ooi after that. asked her why. she gave me stupid reason for it until my uncle talked. she became so soft taking to him -.- i got a prize for the presentation. lyn & daryl each got two for Ahli Aktif & the best presentation! (: Conclusion : my groupmates were down at the afternoon and high at the night! -- thats all for now.

i feel great todayyy! :D was practising dance moves with my group mates, Lyn, Daryl, Zhi Ying. Yih stopped by for few hours. Taught Zhi Ying dance moves, meanwhile Lyn taught Daryl. fair and square. hah. wasnt that good like Lyn, though. she planned it right? but still can catch up. luckily x) left monday for the training only. dont think we could make it. hah. but must have confidence in doing everything right? :DD downloaded PPS today as yih asked me to download. all in chinese -.- idk anyone movies in english with chinese title. how to watch? found harry potter. haha. watched harry potter and the half blood prince for like 23 minutes then stopped. after that, watched 90210. niicee. going to watch when im free. i'll stop now as i got nothing to post already.

don't know why suddenly feel like blog. maybe blogging is only the one i can tell about what i feel. am i still a friend of yours? best friend? no, i no longer have the thought of i am your best friend. i started to feel that the way you reply my message is not like the way you used to reply. maybe i am being over sensitive? i hope i am being sensitive. can someone tell me that people around me are still the same? because i think everyone is changing so fast. i need someone who i can always lean on. but i don't. all i can is tell my friends. but i don't think they can help me. sometimes can though. i don't know who is real and who is fake anymore. i don't know who to trust anymore. everyone around me seems like they are wearing mask. am i really that lousy? am i really a failure? am i really that bad until no one wants to be honest and real around me? maybe i am the one who is always being fake. all the thing goes back to me. ME. MICHELLE PEK EE WEI. i really don't know what to do anymore. i need someone who is real for me to lean on. i have to act like nothing happened and always smile in front of you all. i have to always be the silly one just to make you all smile and laugh. maybe i am just some toy for you all. never been your best friend, and never will be right? i am just someone that is normal. everything i hope wont come true will they? no i don't think so. maybe i should not have exist in this world. yes, i admit i am jealous..

am i still one of them? i think no. i guess yes. obviously i dont know! everyone seems like hate me. what did i do? i did nothing. first, the stupid hangout. huah has to according to everyone's schedule. i asked her when they ask me to ask her. i know you thought that i was lying to you about that. but i swear i did not! i swear i did asked her about it. she told me that cancel, so i tell u cancel. why would i want to lie? why is everyone around me acting so weird? what am i suppose to do? is going cgl a right choice? i am really lost now.

holidays.

holidays are boreddd! finally today get to online. well thats because of danny, my brother, went out today and hasnt came home yet. siggh. watched 4 episodes of a korean series - princess hour. one of the main character look so handssomee! :D hah. his name is lee-yul in the show. real name is kim jeong-hoon. suddenly fall in love with korean series x) yesterday was actually the day to plan our dance for camp performance. but we only planned a few moves. hah. we couldn't think of any guy-ish moves for the guys so end up sitting there and chat. and poked each other. hah. crazy right? i love kim jeong-hoon! he is 29 years old. so oldd. too bad. x(

kim jeong-hoon x)

well thanks sis for helping me edit my blog! thankyou! my links arent that much like the others :)