It's okay, I guess?

So hi peeps. I'm back again. :) ONLY LEFT ABOUT 2 WEEKS THEN I'M FREE FROM WORKING! HOORAYYYYY! Can't wait for it man! And 7th of March is the day I'll be taking my driving test! *cross fingers* MUST FREAKING PASS MAN.  :( Driving has been pretty scary for me cuz' I'd always get so nervous before I start to drive. This is because I wanted to do well so badly that it scares me how pathetic I am. And thanks a couple friends of mine, I think I found a little of my self-confidence back. It's good to know that there's someone to count on when you're so down that all you want is just to be alone. And then there's someone that could make you talk and feel happy again. My friends, as much I as keep to myself, I really do appreciate that you guys are around cuz' my life is a whole lot better with you guys in it. I don't know how would I live w/o you guys.

Anyway, it is really bad to fall for someone. Just so you know, I really hate it but I fell for someone I guess. And it's someone that is wrong again. I'm always falling for the wrong guy, sigh. When are you gonna pick a good one, Ee Wei? I guess this is for me to learn, but I'm still hoping for some miracles to happen. Cuz' people says "Never give up believing". Gonna try doing that.

Well, Feb isn't that bad too. I've been going out pretty often. And I don't understand why would people think that I have a boyfriend? I mean like seriously, just because I take a few pictures with the same guy doesn't mean that he's my boyfriend okay? Don't be so ridiculous.

Because I love them that much. :) 

Love always,

Mich. 

My Existence

You know, sometimes I really doubt myself. I don't think it's sometimes, it should be always. I tried not to, but I just can't help it. I just feel so useless at times, like I'm never good at anything. Nothing. It's always like that. I'm honestly trying you know. Just to be good at least one thing. Just one and I'm satisfied. I'm not good in sports, I'd always quit halfway. Never master it. I'm not that 'friendly' like people who can just connect with others easily. It's just hard. I can do it, if not in real life. I bet anyone can do it. It just hurts so much that I'll never be good at anything and nobody seems to understand how it feels to be that useless. I'm really trying to become better, but why is it so hard? Why does it seems so impossible? Why do I even feel so? 

I'm not that strong anymore. I actually doubt my existence. I don't even feel important. It's just so tiring. 

First Month. :D

Finally one month after I started to work! I wouldn't say working is fun, it's more of like exhausting. Maybe because I wasn't that friendly. As in not that good at finding topics to talk to my colleagues. Things happen anyway. :) Wanted to wait until 10th to post this, but the 10th is the first day of Chinese New Year, I don't think I have time to do so anyway. Well, I think I did learned something ever since I started to work but at the same time I don't think I did. Get it? Sigh. :/

Anyway, I've started to read Naruto manga since 2013. :P Damn, the manga is goddamn long and I'm only at 460. Jeeeeeez, but thank God I found a Naruto buddy! Naruto isn't that fun without someone to talk to, nyehehehe. :))

Went for two movies with James yesterday night after work. Taxi Taxi! & The Last Stand. Man, The Last Stand was just AWESOME! *thumbs up* Taxi Taxi was nice too. Ahh, after so long finally got to watch some movies in the theater. The feeling was just great yo. :D

CNY is around the corner but daddy isn't coming. CNY isn't as fun when daddy isnt around tho my family will have to go from place to place. I hated that but its CNY so yeah..

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It's all RED this year! :D 

Tho I look sad, but I'm not :) 

OOTD :) 

CNY was just like another day. Bored.