been to new school for 3 days already. not really get used to it yet. never will i think. sigh. there's no one to talk to in class. i do have friends in class, but seldom talk. unlike me right ? i used to talk a lot and fooling around in heng ee right? i know that too. everyone's got their own gang. and my classmates are weird. attitude and behavior. marissa is friendly. everyone is also very friendly. but i just got no topic to talk to them. idk why. whatever they talk or discuss, i understand what they said. but idk who is who, which one is which one. so it's just like i dont know a single thing. daryl said i'll fit in well. but now i dont think i can. i have no confident about it. sigh. is this a correct choice of mine ? or wrong ? i dont know. told mom what happened. she just keep telling me this is your choice. you dont like it, you still have to study there. mom, you are the one who wanted me to go CGL since form2. if it wasnt you said it, i never think of going. i like heng ee, i miss heng ee. i can communicate well there. but i cant over here. i can communicate with Lyn ad ah Huah in english. but i cant communicate with them in english. i feel like crying everytime i talk about school. how i missed heng ee. i was going to cry when on the way to huah's house and inside her house. if just now was in her room, i think i had cried. i just cant get used to it how they study. i've been in a strict school for 2 years. and noww. a school that is so free that make me think there's no discipline. maybe in the future i'll become so too. i hope i'll cause i'll then i think i'll be much more happier than now. but idw to just play around. i must good results. i have commitments. it's not like my mom doesnt give a shit about my results. she doesnt care what happen to me, she just want my results to be good. i think. i used to can mix around with everyone, but now i just cant. idk why. how i wish i never leave heng ee. maybe it's better to get out there. but for now, i just wanna go back. maybe in the future, i'll be happy with my own decision.

thats all for today. will blog as soon as possible.